*Sigh* It's my last day at work. There's nothing I hate more than leaving a job I enjoy. I tend to dislike change, especially when it means leaving a place where I have really fit in and made friends with my co-workers. It seems like major events in my life come in spurts. I got married, moved out, and got a new job all at once. Now, I'm graduating, getting another new job, and moving to a bigger place all at once. I had originally planned to take thursday and friday off to relax and prepare for the new job I start on monday. however, because the way events happened, it ended up that I am going to be moving tomorrow and friday. It's a good thing, because it means I won't have to drive the long drive from denton to my new job, and I was lucky enouch to have time off to do it. It just means that I have everything happening at once again, with no real time to deal with everything. again. I'm going to miss my drive. I hate driving so far, but I am going to miss the trip. It is so quiet and easy. a nice time to think and listen to books on tape. now I'm driving through Dallas traffic, and I'm worried that my drive will be more stressfull. I will miss my cubicle. I have a nice desk by the window that I like. I have everything set up like I want it. I will miss my computer. I hate breaking in a new computer, adjusting all the settings, creating the cookies you want, doing all that crap. Mostly, I'm going to miss Rocky. In a time where I have lost contact with some friends, and lost others altogether, it was so great to have him there. I will miss him not being in the cubicle next to me, for me to prarie-dog over the desk and share all my random thoughts with, etc. I will miss joking with my other co-workers. I just hate change. Did I mention that? But at least I have Wendy. At least I have one good constant thing in my life. I thank God for her.

So, I'm sitting here listening to They Might be Giants. So appropriate.

THEY MIGHT BE GIANTS - "Hovering Sombrero"

Hey hovering sombrero
Gently waving in the air above the meadow
Softly floating in the sky outside the window
Hovering sombrero don't be shy

Don't... don't be shy
Don't be... terrified
When you take yourself for granted
Feel rejected and unwanted
Know you're never just a hat
You're never only just a hat, you know
Hovering sombrero
Hovering sombrero

Time is flying like an arrow
And the clock hands go so fast they make the wind blow
And it makes the pages of the calender go flying out the window one by one
Til a hundred years are on the front lawn
And the old familiar things are mostly all gone
But the old sombrero just keep hovering on
Hovering sombrero hover on

Don't be burdened by regrets
Or make your failures an obsession
Or become embittered or possessed
By ruined hopes remember

When you take yourself for granted
Feel rejected and unwanted
Know you're never just a hat
You're never only just a hat, you know
Hovering sombrero
Hovering sombrero

THEY MIGHT BE GIANTS - "Older"

You're older than you've ever been.
And now you're even older.
And now you're even older.
And now you're even older.

You're older than you've ever been.
And now you're even older.
And now you're older still.

TIME! Is marching on.
And time.. is still marching on.
This day will soon be at an end and now it's even sooner.
And now it's even sooner.
And now it's even sooner.
This day will soon be at an end and now it's even sooner.
And now it's even sooner.
And now it's sooner still.

You're older than you've ever been.
And now you're even older.
And now you're even older.
And now you're even older.

You're older than you've ever been.
And now you're even older.
And now you're older still.

I thought this went right along with what I posted previously. Everything is perfect. What a thought. Even pain is part of God's plan. Can we say God is capricious for this? That would be pretty arrogant of us, wouldn't it, assuming that we can judge God by the same standard by which He judges us? I know that some people will respond to that question with, "Well, yes. We can." But such a response simply means that the speaker does not understand, and it is an issue which I cannot explain. There is some understanding that only comes, and cannot be imparted. This is one of those things. The root of the lack of understanding is a lack of understanding of humanity's position in relation to God. You see, God is above us. He's God. You see, therein lies the misunderstanding. God, by definition, is God. He's the all-ruling, all-powerful, all-knowing force that created all things, including the rules for good and bad. God cannot, by definition, be ruled by good and bad, because there is no power higher than God by which to determine good and bad for God or to judge Him for His actions. He just IS the rule. People don't like that because they don't like having an authority higher than themselves. I can't change that or help that. (of course, the ironic thing is that, by definition, they can't help there being a higher authority than themselves either).